Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Love

Okay, I feel another pessimistic blog coming on. I am not a lovey, mushy kind of girl. And, since being married to an accountant, I have given up on Valentine's Day. Although, truth be told, it has never been my favorite "holiday." I have been reading a book called One Month the Live: Thirty Days to a No-Regrets Life by Kerry and Chris Shook. It has been a very interesting book. I am on the chapter about Loving Completely. Here is what the first part says: "When it is all said and done, relationships are all that really matter. It doesn't matter how much money we have, where we live, or how many beautiful toys we have collected. None of these can comfort us, console us, cry with us, or love us. Our investment in the people we care about is the only legacy that has the power to endure beyond our lifetime." Ryan teases me because I am obsessed with my funeral. I know that sounds crazy but it totally made since to me when I read this passage. How many people come to my funeral, to me, equates the amount of people I invested in. Sometimes, in my world, I lose sight of the day to day people I invest in outside of my four walls. I know I have not invested in others as many as some but perhaps more than others. However, I can honestly say when I love, I love for life. I have never told someone I loved them on a whim; not even as a child. I was listening to a song from the Fireproof soundtrack the other day and it said this "Love is not a place to come and go as we please. It's a house we enter in and then commit to never leave." That is so me. So, when I begin to get onto myself about being off-standish I am going to remind myself that I strive for "quality not quantity"!